I have begun new photographic work dealing with my growing up without a male figure/father. It is because of this that I have realized that growing up without one has made me set unreasonably high standards for myself of what kind of a man I should become to deserve forming a relationship that could possibly lead to a family. I have this notion that I need to be financial secure which would allow me to feel stable then allowing me to be there for the person I form the relationship with. Coming to the realization also means I figured out why I am so scared of relationships and allowing people to get close to me. It is this fear that I to will be absent from their lives as well or that I will not be able to care fro them and give them what they need. I can only hope that they find better than what I think I deserve.
I can only hope that this work might help me work through some of these issues